If only we allowed ourselves to feel, truly feel...

Of course we feel but how often do we allow ourselves to really feel the harder emotions... the anger, the grief, the sadness, the frustration....? We find it hard to see pain, to feel pain to witness pain. I am by no means saying we have to enjoy it but we do need to feel it. Emotions are energy in motion. Feelings are energy. We are energy compressed into matter - the magical, amazing physical body. It truly is the vehicle for our soul. Mainstream science does not necessarily share this but modern day science is finding that energy is key to our physical and mental wellbeing as a human being. When we stop ourselves from feeling, we stop the flow. I learnt the other day that an emotion actually only lasts up to 90 seconds... if this is true why on earth do we not allow ourselves to feel it and instead suppress it so we don't have to look or listen to it, let alone feel it!

This all came to me with the herd this morning... I was contemplating my work with them going forward (which is very exciting by the way... more on that another time...) and considering how we are so conditioned to look for what is wrong and what we need to fix rather than looking at all that is right and what there is to be joyful and grateful for. I looked at Lightening - my worry head... " ooh you are a bit thin... must think of ways to separate and feed more... " then something said 'change your focus! Look at what is beautiful here....' And I did. He is the happiest he has ever been. He neighed at me the other day (hasn't done that in years), his coat is shiny, the heavy laminitis neck he arrived with 10 years ago has gone, he loves his friends, he is relaxed... so much right. The environment I am holding for them is taught by them so when my 'human, conditioned horsey head' comes in, I feel myself go into panic.... and then I centre, tune into them and it all feels good again. But how can we get to this point if we do not feel? It is unsurprising that many believe animals don't feel or that communication with animals is not possible... because if we can't feel our own emotions how on earth can we feel theirs or connect with theirs?! But deep down every single one of us 'knows' that every being is connected because when we allow ourselves to slow down and 'be' we experience something magical, something so peaceful, even if only for a tiny moment, between ourself and all other beings.

We really want to face our feelings - the uncomfortable ones too, to feel them, to free them and to let go. The moment we do this we start to heal deeply. We no longer own the stories we have held onto for soooooo long... we start to make new ones, ones that support us and allow us to grow.

Exercise:

When you feel an emotion come up... or tension in the body... go there. Face it. Feel it. Turn it up. Observe it. Do not judge it or name it.... let it be there and then let it go ... it may take a few times or a few more times... but it will move, it will heal and you will too.

Held emotions or energy, stagnate. Stagnation causes disease.