So this piece is divided into parts ....so you can pick and choose!
Life on the farm
How has your February been? My blurb
The wrapped up version - shorter read
LIFE ON THE FARM
So a wonderful addition - Stella the Staffy! She is cute as! Little sharp puppy teeth that slightly alarmed us for a few days but with some research we found that telling her just how much we love her and how clever she is, she responds really well and is refraining from biting so much. 'No' is not in her vocabulary it just makes her bark! Minnow was the same. I remember walking her and telling her off for doing something... she looked at me and just walked off! I guess it is obvious really but funny how 'no' is so engrained in us! Or Telling off!
So love bombs all round and a new friend. Pablo has been an amazing friend to her and very protective. Chichi less so but she is coming around slowly. Minnow has been amazing. her raised snarls say it all in one go to puppy Stella, so she knows exactly where she stands with Min dog.
The cockerels have sent me to the funny farm. We hatched 11 last year out of 17 eggs...and they are truly beautiful but our attempt to move their song away from the house has not worked and their chat from 2am to 7am around the bedrooms is too much. It has made me realise once more that none of us are in a postition to judge anyone else's situation especially if we have not experienced it ourselves. And even then no right to judge....
They may be rehomed, they may become an organic dinner for human or fox. Some have moved on already with great appreciation.
Wherever the rest go next they are deeply appreciated and the lessons i have learned have been huge. One being how incredible hens are as mums! I mean to keep 17 chicks alive is pretty cool. Three mums coming together to protect and love. A reminder that it takes a community to raise young.... or a family! If we are to let chicks come again, we will prepare the fields for the arrival of cockerals and make sure that they know home is in the field NOT the house. To have a cosey and safe home there with their hens. We have witnessed very little fighting and they have been really easy... much to general opinion. They are just incredibly LOUD and love to chat, as i said, near the home and in order for me/us to function and care for all beings from a space of love and patience, sleep is essential. I did not appreciate just how much!
We are moving the pigs to their new paddock soon. The internet lied. Kune Kune pigs DO turf fields! HA
The upside - looking forward to the Spring to see what they have unearthed.
We have planted some mini forests - well Alex has done the hard work....i filled the basket and pressed the checkout button!
Lots of ideas for the farm.... lots of trees to plant....was hoping this March/April but think it might be September now as too wet to get all the holes dug. We shall see....
Meeting lovely people in the Air BnB.... horses and the goats are a wonderful extra for the kids that come along!
As always we are reminded that Love is the greatest healer and teacher of all....and not only Love but living Authentically. The herd will ALWAYS knock me sideways if i am bullshi**ing myself or them.... and hey if they don't the Universe will! So no escaping if you don't have horses! :)
Micky came down with Colic the other night and I was pretty concerned. Well we had two episodes in a week. The second being a little more conerning than the first. I let our lovely vet know what was going on ... really as a request to be on standby or to expect a call.... and then over the next couple of hours just sat/stood in total presence. Any fearful thought that came in... i replaced with stillness.... love.... presence. Alex and i stood for a whole hour the first time. He went straight to presence - it is what is is - lets be here... i had to get there in my way... faffing around being human, brushing him, offering him things, being a bit in his face trying to make him better.... George finally had enough and came and stood between me and Micky and demanded i brushed him.... anything to get me off Micky's case! And me backing off allowing
Micky the space to heal. We all (goats, horses, sheep, Alex, me) just stood in a space of love and complete presence to allow Micky to do what he needed to do. If that was to pass on... that was his time... if it was to get better..... that was his calling. Fortunately for my human self... he chose to stay!
But i share this because it really was an incredible portrayal of the power of Love and the power of presence and i guess acceptance and trust.
How has your February been?
I have to admit I get to this point of the winter and i start to question why we live in the UK. This year has been especially challenging for many i think.... the lack of our Vitamin D supply has been insane! I reckon i can count on my two hands - for which i am VERY grateful for- the number of blue skies we have had this winter.... what is going on?!
So if you are feeling low, fed up and a little overwhelmed right now... i hear you! Thing is the winter is the time for us to recoup, to rest, to recharge so that we get to spring and bloom like the rest of Nature does but very often i find we come out of winter more exhausted than we went in! Is that the wet, cold weather we have here? I just don't remember it being so grey in the UK and i reckon the grey makes everything else seem grey and yet it really is all down to our perception. I have had some moments this past week, including this morning of feeling very grey.... and then i sing.... and something shifts. I am no great singer....perhpas, 'i make sound' is a better way of sharing what i embrace. I have asked for a hug... hugs are so healing. Three a day (at least) sends all Dr's away. I have sobbed....tears are so good at clearing that wasteful energy... that sticky, waste energy that is holding us back....preventing us from seeing the rainbow and i have checked in with gratitude. Being grateful for the big things and the tiny things we might miss if lost in our head... such as the beautiuful buds on the trees! All these are great go to's for when the winter or life has pressed that 'i challenge you' button!
So, rather than continuing about how very challenging and grey February is, let us focus on the fact that we are at the end of it and what are we going to leave with it, so that we can grow larger and brighter with the spring and new beginings. Often the winter allows us to face some discomforts.... some ummm... not sure thats for me anymore.... some grey. I have certainly had those moments this winter and some big questions have come up for me too.... do i have the answers to them... nope but i have recognised that the only way out of 'holes' or the 'unknown' is to create new.... whether that be in word, in thought, in action.... guess all one of the same in the end! To allow all 'ego' characteristics such as fear of being judged, seen as failure... not being enough.... to be dissolved by the soulful self of i have this, i am so enough and i am the great I AM. So message loud and clear - get creating!
And i have been practicing this a lot... you see there is a narrative that plagues my thinking when i am run down and over tired... (i am responsible for this narrative as i have not put boundaries up, tried to appease, or tried to move things forward ... something i need to learn!) and the narrative is draining, negative, and quite frankly bollocks. It is like my go to to sabotage all my hard work... to sabotage me..... now the exciting thing is that i have finally recognised that that is what i do... build up things and then sabotage! Finally taking responsiblity for what i create... the good and the ugly! But along with this the up side is deep in my knowing ... i sabotage because i know it is not my true calling.... and that has also been a wake up for me this winter.
Now that is not to say that all my hard work and successes have been for nothing. They have been for everything ... my growth for one. But to know why we might be sabotaging things is a wonderful thing because it is the higher self/universe closing a door for you and opening another. And we know it to be extra true because we are not doing it to other areas of our life. What i mean by this, is we must be aware that the sabotaging is a closing door not a self destruct. The latter is different energy and there is still stuff to learn from that story. If you want more clarity on this get in touch... if not i will share in time no doubt.
So my journey is taking a turn and my narrative has been turned to creativity only....mostly.... certainly being tested(!) .... every time i find myself thinking about these stories that i have carried for SO very long... i focus on my new narrative ...the one filled with family, friends, horses, animals, nature, dreams, dragons, numbers, writing and creativity. The conditioned mind can be quite persuasive and do its best to hold you back, to keeep you safe... but keep trusting the energy of the creative mind, directed by YOU, by your heart, by your wisdom and keep your awareness there.
I share this in hope that if anyone else is feeling grey or felt some rubbish moments to say - it's ok - you have this - you are awesome and keep focusing on the things that make you sing. And if you are feeling grey all over.,.. FEEL it... its shouting out for you to FEEL so that it can flow on and create room for more of the creative you! We are creative beings after all!
Wrapped up version
I am not going to say more as often we say too much but let me leave this with you.... whatever has come up for you this winter, be sure to feel it .... to love it, however uncomfortable and listen.... whether you get an answer or not of which way to go next, listen to the feeling and say thank you. Nothing is ever wasted... there is no failure only lessons and growth and if something is not working then let it go however much the ego or your friends and family shout..... but you must do this! Do what you want to do and only that - with consideration and gratitude for others of course! It may take time... there might be aspects you keep and grow .... be patient, be kind to yourself (and others) and listen to that knowing deep within you.
The best way to live your best life is to be present in all you do. Perhaps make that a priority for your journey this year. In the present there is no drama, simply what is... you have the opportunity to feel, to create, to be. It is a place of peace .... the stillness between the thoughts. The connection to the I AM.
For any 1:1 or group guidance on how to be the Superpower you are by embracing the Present of Presence itself... please get in touch or find tips and sharings here, on my youtube page (yes I am behind in uploads) and/or substack.
bynaturesway or nicolacorbett
Take care beautiful people.
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